On dictionary.com, the defintion of a "maneater" is an animal that eats human flesh. A cannibal. On urbandictionary.com, the defintion is put most simply as a woman who uses men. She may use them for sexual, financial or psychological needs. Perhaphs for sexual favors, out of boredom, for the game or because of personal insecurities.
Upon hearing the song "Maneater" sung by Nelly Furtado this morning, I questioned myself and my motives for pursuing the opposite sex. (As corny as it may sound, this really happened).
I feel as though, whether we like to admit it or not, we're all trying to find our 'label'. Call it what you may, but everone is trying to find themselves and at the end of the day, they are all trying to put some sort of label on themselves. Even for those people who say "I don't want to be a label, I'm not just a label"...really, thats your label. The "unlabelable".
So maybe I don't want to be labeled as a Maneater. Or a Heartbreaker. Or a Tease. So what do I want to be labeled as? Would it be easier if we all came out with the words written across our foreheards so we knew what to do? Of course this would be easier but that's not reality. We all have to find our places in this world.
So where's mine? And who I am?
On some days, I feel as though I know exactly who I am. On others, I wonder "How the hell did I get here?". I know I'm not the only person out there who feels this way. I know everyone has questions and doubts...but when does it get easier? I thought it would with experience but alas, I feel just as lost as I did one year ago and trust me, I've had quite a few experiences since then.
So how am I going to find my way? And how am I going to know which way is right?
If I had the answer, I'd already be there.