do you believe in destiny?

Destiny. Fate. Karma. Kismet.

I've always believed that everything happens for a reason. I was given this name, I live in this house, I went to this school and met these friends all for specific reasons that helped build the life I live today. Then I started to question it. What's the reason I stubbed my toe on the door, why did I only have 1 wisdom tooth, how come I stepped in a puddle on my way into work today? Silly questions but all relevant to the idea of destiny, I suppose.

This idea has always come to my head when referring to love. Was I meant to go to that school on Sunday morning and meet my first boyfriend? Was I meant to go to that HealthQuest dance and get my first kiss from him just a few months later? Or is everything in life coincidence. We just happen to both go to service that morning. OR is coincidence what leads us to our fate?

Well, what's the use in thinking about this right? We'll never know the answer. It is just frustrating when you meet someone new, pick a school, acquire a job, buy a home, and you wonder, is this what I'm meant to do? Or many, you have many destiny's lined up, but it's up to you to choose which is best.

This was simply something I felt the need to put down in words for it's been on my mind ever since this journey of applying to schools began. I'd love to hear your thoughts and opinions on destiny and fate and any insight you've found in your travels.

so its been a year...

Almost one whole year since I first blogged about my ridiculously exciting life filled with suspense and romance. And above all-questions.
For all you single guys out there yes I am still available. Surprise surprise.
And I still have questions!

I just started reading this amazing book yesterday called "Just Who Will You Be?" by Maria Shriver. Of course my mother suggested it and I'm like "OK sure mom!". Then I actually began reading it at work. There's an intro, a long poem then a conclusion. After reading the intro, I have not stopped thinking about it. The poem is corny but filled with truth. The conclusion I will more than likely finish tonight. You should defiantly check the book out for yourself but it basically sums up the idea of "what do you want to be when you grow up" to "who do you want to be". And it's so true.

I'm currently in a struggle, trying to find my place within this crazy world and peace within myself. Saying to myself "OK what is my major going to be? What am I going to do with the rest of my life?". While I have ideas, this book has shifted my way of thinking. WHO do I want to be? I don't have the answer for all of you (or myself, really) but we'll figure it out together hmm?

Interestingly enough, I first titled this blog "On The Prowl", insinuating my pursuit of men. I think this meaning has slightly shifted. While I am still on the look out for men (I repeat, I am single!), I am also looking for myself. Hopefully through out my new experiences, with the spring semester beginning in less than a week and my constant attempts to apply to schools, I will slowly begin to answer my new question:

JUST WHO WILL YOU BE?