What A Twist!

I just had an epiphany!

I've been struggling with the fact that, God isn't giving me direction, I'm not getting answers and I don't know the "right" thing to do. I have always wished that I was perfect and that life was perfect and that I knew my life plan. I imagine all of these turns of events that have such meaning in my life and I have to do the right thing or go the right way or my life will be doomed.

But what if there is no plan? What if God wants you to plan your own life and just be happy with the decisions you make? Live with no regrets, take risks and enjoy yourself.

What if?

I've been struggling with my next move in life, where to go to school. Then I came to the idea, maybe I don't want to be in school right now. And of course I think of the results of my actions thinking, I can't get a job if I don't have a full degree or a certificate or anything! I'm scared I will regret the decisions I make now that I cannot change. I have always lived my life on the safe side, I've never taken a risk. Now at the vunerable age of 19 I need to start making big decisions, decisions that could affect the rest of my life. Now I wonder, if instead thinking these decisions will affect my life negatively, why not say they will shape my life? I guess it's all about your view of life...